Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Walks into very first college class……blinks…..end of the school year?


It would seem that we have only been in college for a couple of months, right?  That “winter” we had was only a week long cold chill, right?  Wasn’t welcome week like two months ago?  Every time someone walks up and mentions that we have around four weeks left, I want to flip out.  This place has become home to me, and the thought of leaving it again for my real home in Alabama really freaks me out (ironic, right?).  Some days it seems like I haven’t been here long at all.  Other days, when I’m bored, I will reflect on how much I have changed at UT and I will feel as though I have been here forever.  It’s rather depressing to think that it is almost finals time, when it still feels as though I have just made it back from Ignite Summit and have made my first friend here.
I guess I am so nervous because there is no guarantee that I will still be here in the next year and a half.  I made a promise to myself when I was eleven after having my gallbladder removed.  That promise was to become a nurse.  However, I am not in the nursing program yet.  For whatever reason, I did not know that we were supposed to apply to the College of Nursing separately, so now I am competing with all of the other students in the same position.  It is notoriously hard to get into nursing school this way.  The frustrating thing is, I am taking the same courses as my fellow freshmen who knew they were supposed to apply.  A lot of these people have not been doing so well in a few of these classes, but I have been doing relatively ok.  Please note that I am not trying to insult any of my classmates, but you might understand if you felt as much uncertainty about your future as I do right now.  They could stay in the nursing program if they kept a GPA about 3.0 (I think) and I still might not get in even if I have a GPA of say 3.7 or 3.8.
I do not regret my decision on coming to UT.  I have learned so much here and have made many friends.  I wanted to experience a different state and challenge myself by starting over somewhere that I didn’t have a single friend.  It will be the absolute happiest day of my life if I am accepted into the Nursing Program here, because I will stay at the school I love, and will not be forced to return back to Alabama.

6 comments:

  1. The future is such a mystery, and even I feel the stress of venturing into the unknown. I have to keep my GPA up also in order for my career to continue where I left off at. What is your contingency plan? You should keep applying to the college of nursing and other schools if you don't land it this time, but I think you will.

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  2. I think you would make a great nurse and hope that you get in. I have another friend who is also trying to get into nursing school here so I know what you mean when you say it is very competitive.

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  3. I really hope you can get into the nursing program! And I feel that way about the school year almost being over, too. It's crazy that we've almost finished our first year of college already. Good luck on the nursing thing!!

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  4. First year flies by. I think it's because of all the new experiences, lots to take in!

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  5. I hope you get into nursing here. I know I loved this year and can still remember my Ignite experience too. Even when things are uncertain, there is always hope!

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